What can I say??? It's 1:10AM on September 2, 2007. Wow, 2007? Damn, I still vividly remember awaiting the decision on whether Charlotte will get a football team in 1995. Also, several of the computers we have at work are from 1997 or earlier. You know what we call those computers? "Old as shit." I mean, I know when they came out of their box in the mid-ninties, they were the fastest things around, but not so much any more.

That leads me to think, where will I be in 10 years? Will I be religated to the "old as shit" category or will I still be a top dog? Only time will tell I can imagine. All I do know is that I regret alot. That's bad, since I know that means I should take control and not do the things I will later regret, but it doesn't matter. I still regret killing a frog with a weedwacker when I was in middle school. I still regret being an asshole to everyone I have loved...driving them away. At the time I feel vindicated for obtaining justice for some crime that those people did not commit, but I look back and realize that the only person committing a crime is me. Then I get sad and think about all that may have been. But without those things I have done, I wouldn't be the person I am today, with my wife. So, is it better that I was a jackass and pushed away all those I loved to one day find my wife - who is just stubborn enough to deal with me - or would it have been better that I had not been a jerk and things been different? I don't know - and perhaps that is why shows like Sliders are so attractive to me. I am glad to be where I am, but my only hope is that my future is no longer driven by my being a jerk.

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